Hot Mama Turns up the Creative Heat

In the last light of dusk, as a soft rain considered its possibilities, I walked up the hill to my studio with McKinley. Jay, our niece Emily, our intern Andy, and our neighbor L, were already up there, and had been working for most of the day installing the custom, handmade woodstove named Hot Mama into my studio. Inside everyone stood around the corner where the woodstove stood, a black pipe rising up and disappearing neatly into the wall. Emily had gathered a pile of twigs and sticks in the belly of the stove, and McKinley, reading my mind, announced that I should light the first fire.

And so I did. The sharp strike of a match brought forth the burst of flame that licked hungrily at the wood. There was no second match. The fire grew and its warmth radiated to our skin as we stood around it, admiring its beauty. Denali turned off the lamps, and the apple-shaped window of mica glowed red in the darkness.

There is no small significance to this fire. So many people have stood around me and supported my creative life. Carl Davidt made this stove for me, so inexpensively as to be considered a gift. He is a metal sculptor who has been a good friend for many years, and I can feel the love that went into this stove. Emily, Andy, and neighbor L, have put in many hours helping out around Berrytown. But my husband’s support has been unwavering and his encouragement consistent. Watching that apple glow, feeling the warmth from the fire, my own creative fire was rekindled. So many times assorted frustrations have given me an excuse to back away from my creative life. Now, with all the support and love warming up my studio, I don’t think I can do that anymore. The space swirled with possibilities and mingled with the smoke that had escaped from the door of the stove. I breathed it all in.

Bellwort, nearly done

I’ve only time for a quick post, since it’s past dinner-making time, and everyone is eager to eat some chicken pot pie from the rooster that was harvested today. Thankfully many hands can make quick work of dinner prep! But before dinner I wanted to quickly post a photo of a piece that’s nearly done.

bellwort, nearly done

This lovely flower is a bellwort, a Spring ephemeral that blooms both in my garden and in the moist Appalachian woods around my home.  I am particularly enamored with this demure flower with its lovely twisting petals.  It should be finished in a few days, along with a commission I’ve been working on!

Blaring Beethoven

Though yesterday started downtrodden, it quickly became a fabulous day. I immersed myself in creativity–writing in the morning, working in the studio in the afternoon, and in the last hours of the day I drove up to the Blue Ridge Parkway, which is just some ten minutes from my home. I rolled down the windows, opened the sunroof, and blasted Beethoven’s piano concerto no. 5, the second movement of which has always been pure magic to me.

I hiked a ways down Bald Knob Trail and sketched some tall Red Spruce trees, their tops ladled with the last golden light of the day.  Then more driving, more Beethoven, more golden light.  I drove to where I could watch the sun set–something which is impossible to see from my own home.  Ah, the disadvantages of living at the foot of a mountain.

I sketched and then took some photos of a lovely grouping of hawthorn trees, some fruit still clinging to their thorny branches.  Since I am no photographer I was not able to capture the golden quality of the scene.  But I had fun messing around with one of the photos on my trusty computer, and rather like the result, though I won’t be able to even glance at this modified photograph while I work on the painting, as it will influence my memory of the scene.

hawthron at sunset

This was a sorely needed artist’s date!  When the moon is nearing full, I’ll take my kids on a late night drive on the Parkway.  We can bring blankets and hot chocolate and listen to the Pastoral Symphony on the way up.  Once outside, we will listen to the owls.

Studio Gambling

I’ve been journaling every morning this week. It’s been a long time. Curiously, the thrill of technology is what has enticed me back into the practice—we got a Smart Pen for my husband on his fortieth birthday, and he has kindly given me one of the special notebooks and let me use his [...]

Studio Update: Trout Lily Brings Spring and Organization

I finished another piece Friday night—this time it’s of a trout lily.   For your viewing pleasure:

Trout Lily Brings Spring

Trout Lily Brings Spring
5 x 7″
pastel on board

Now if you don’t know trout lilies, let me introduce them to you.  They are tiny little things, and they bloom very early—one of the earliest blooms I find down by the South Toe River.  There I find hoards of their tiny slips of leaves, mottled and coated with a fine reflective sheen, but very few flowers.  I’m not sure if these colonies of leaves sans flowers are just too young, or maybe they don’t get enough light to bloom, but I know there are other places where I can find the yellow flowers, their petals peeled back in exuberance.  I’m still hoping that one Spring I’ll walk down and find those patches of dappled leaves hosting crowns of blooms.

I’m pleased with this painting, and wish I could capture the magic of pastels for you to see, for the original has far  more luster than what you see here.   Pastels are so divine, and I am really enjoying working with them on Ampersand’s Pastelbord.  This week I am doubling up–I have a commission I am starting on, and I also will be painting the lovely bellwort.  Now there’s a fine lady of a flower!

And how will I do this, and harvest potatoes, squash, can peaches and beans, and visit with my mother and sister, and go to a birthday party, and plant turnips and beets?  Well, I’m not entirely sure, but I have been utilizing Google Calendar to keep track of all the assorted tasks and deadlines that I have, in the studio, the home, and the garden.  It has really helped manage my time better.  And this morning Jason and I had a great planning session, delegating tasks to our energetic intern and reluctant kids.  Let’s hope we can keep it up and make time management a joyful morning practice!  Along with coffee, of course.

Stalled Labor, Creatively Speaking

Last night I dreamed that I sent a story I wrote off to a contest, and while it didn’t place in the contest, it did receive positive feedback from two of the judges. One was a handwritten note, signed in a precise and sophisticated hand, and the other was a small inspirational card that looked as if it had been pinned to a bulletin board for a long time, with

Studio Update: Summer’s End

I worked past midnight in the studio yesterday, and rose late this morning to calm clouds and breezes. This is a distinct change from the weather of late, and most welcome. A few days ago I noticed another distinct change: ironweed blooming, a high cluster of deep violet blooms, and I know that means Summer’s end is upon us. The whirring of crickets reminds me of that too, and I embrace the shifting days. I am ready for cooler nights!

There’s another shift in my life, one I can barely explain, except to attribute it to the workings of Mystery: I have been working regularly in my studio! For me this is a dramatic departure from my usual stance of “mother-and-frustrated-artist.” Not only have I been working in the studio, I’ve also been lining up exhibitions, events, and workshops to which I will be applying. Really, this is an amazing development! Finally subscribing to The Pastel Journal no doubt has something to do with it, as it is a wonderful resource for the pastelist, but there’s something else at work here.

Last Sunday we performed a despacho ceremony, which originates with the Andean people, and which we did under the direction of our passionate intern, Andy.   I’d never heard of it before, but ever since he arrived in early July he’d been talking about doing a despacho.  It was fulfilling and intimate and luminous.  And it has everything, everything, everything to do with that dramatic shift.

What else can I say about that?   I believe meaningful ceremony is the raison d’être for humanity’s existence upon the Earth.  Not the only reason for being, but high, high up there.  So there will be more Ceremony in my life.  More fulfillment. More intimacy.  More luminosity.

Speaking of fulfillment, here’s the piece I finished last night:

Wake Robin Rising from the EarthWake Robin Rising from the Earth
4.5″ x 6.5″
pastel on Ampersand Pastelbord

More finished pieces coming soon!  Yay!